the light that casts out the darkness.

i used to find straight women completely useless and people my age and younger intolerable. today i have relationships with both and am kind of happy i do. i used to think making it into the rooms just meant there would be more people at my funeral whenever i killed myself. i used to be proud that no one loved me. a lot has changed. and i think i just now realized that it did. things have changed. not everything. im perfectly imperfect and i get to work on myself. or at least thats what im told and clearly my thinking gets me nowhere but insanity. and most of the things i stressed over ten years ago dont seem like problems today. thank god im a little patient and didnt leave before the miracle happened.