the middle. it just takes some time.

its pretty funny how it works.
i was helping someone that ended up helping me. i guess something is always there as long as im open and willing to accept it. and i can intellectualize the concepts and get it and then not really get it. and the older i get the more wounded i see the other people around me and realize we might not be that different after all. and i have to remind myself that not all interactions i have with the world are going to result in loving relationships but it just takes a couple successes to make it all worthwhile. and even though i try to tell myself that it never works out and its not worth putting myself out there because getting hurt causes too much pain. i just have to open my eyes and see all the people in my life that do love me. im going to attempt to continue to grow.

i dont mean to sound cold, but im really trying to stick to my new campaign: i dont have time for people who dont have time for me.